Hatred
Hatred, such a destructive feeling, along with the other negative feelings like fear and anger. They are like a raging fire that consumes until there is nothing left to consume, leaving the person empty. yet, i find this to be true... some of them have hatreds craved so deep into their hearts that they live, only to hate... they form relationships only so that they can hate people more when things go sour or not to their expectations... they were empty, but they only want to find new sources to continue a life of hatred... it's only a matter of time b4 the hatred spreads to others and cause cycle after cycle after cycle...
i know of this friend... who has such deep hatred for those ard him/her... he/she hated many people ard him/her b4... now, those hatred has burnt out... but he/she found new hatreds... juz bcos of something small... something that is easily settled and resolved, yet ignited such a hatred within him/her that he/she wants to break away... such a person has left a huge emotional toll on me as i tried time n time again to talk to him/her, only to fall on deaf ears... same things i spoke again n again...yet not caught in the spirit... really leaves me emotionally drained... that sometimes i really just want to drop everything n leave everything behind...
yet this hatred wasn't present in this person when i 1st knew him/her. this person was a person who was ready to help those in need n do things to forge relationships... i knew this person for a long time. this hatred was only carved when things started to go sour after the O levels. got rejected from poly, got kicked out of ITE, felt used by a 3 year long GF, family problems, taught values that caused his/her mentality n thinking to be so negative... this person was one of the 1st few people who introduced me to church, but now... a totally different person altogether... really really really feel heartache... the only thing i do for this person... is to pray that.... God will be with this person and released from the hatred....
"How I wish to go to a Place where There is only Peace, Happiness and Love. The World I'm in Now has None of These. Only Pain, Misery and Suffering and My Life is Full of Them. Such is Life for me. Such is Destiny. How I Want to be Free from The Tyranny of Physical Existance."
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+To see The Lord one day
+A 3G phone(Done!)
+My other Half
+whatever you wish for
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`her mood
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Jackie